Are you excited for Christmas?
Personally, this year I don't feel very excited for Christmas even though it is Christmas Eve and omg Santa will be delivering all the presents tonight!
I don't know why it is but it doesn't feel like December at all! Maybe it's because there's no snow this year or that Mum has gone to London and Kent to visit her family instead of being home with me. . . (I don't even live with my Mum anymore but I want her to be home for Christmas)
This year has flown by and maybe it's because it has been a year since Mum was diagnosed with Breast Cancer (18th December 2013) that I don't feel festive or the fact I was in hospital two days ago or maybe it's because I'm growing up and the magic of Christmas is starting to fade or because for the first time in years my brother will be with us for Christmas but Mum won't be.
I miss our Christmas traditions - me, Oliver, Mum and Dad. Oliver would wake up really early and we'd both open our stockings that were on the end of our beds before our parents got up. We'd go downstairs and show them what we got then after breakfast we'd go to the Church service. After our Christmas lunch we'd open some more presents and then sit around the TV to watch Doctor Who! Everyone was happy and I never thought it would end! I wish it hadn't ended. . .
Just a short post tonight because I can't sleep so that's it for now,
Kazia x
