This week is my last week of university and it feels bittersweet but I think I've made a decision. I've been struggling for way too long and I even took the last week off so I could have a "break" from the stress. I'm thinking about leaving university.
From a very young age I wanted to go to university, I think I've written about it before. I had an overwhelming need to go. I would be asked in school what I wanted to do when I was older and "go to university" would be my answer every time.
I am so grateful that I got the chance to study last September. I was incredibly excited to start in a new place and make new friends. But I feel like my university journey is over. I've tried it and overcome some of my anxiety. I've been able to use public transport which was literally impossible before. I've learnt to cook "real" food, I've been shopping for myself, using the laundrette. I tried clubbing and drinking shots (which was interesting!) I have some brilliant memories.
My next step is setting my decision in stone, to tell my parents that I don't want to stay at university anymore.
I have been thinking about what I want to do instead:
- Walk more
- Learn to drive
- "Master" the ukulele
- Photography
- Videos
- Blogging
I guess that's it for now. Hopefully I'll have an update on Friday/the weekend!
Kazia x
